Mr Bluebird on my Shoulder

I just wanted to say thanks to everyone for your encouraging comments. I think it was just the hormones yesterday that made me really depressed by my doctor's visit, but I'm feeling much better today. We are so excited to be checking into the hospital in 38.5 hours! Although, since I have been retired, and have spent much of my time around the house, I have thought, "I don't know if this is as good as I thought it was going to be." and "Is all this cleaning and laundry and filling my time with random crap what my life is gonna be like from now on?" cause, I'm kinda bored.

What do you wish you had brought to the hospital or are so glad you had with you?

I'm Discouraged

I had my final doctor's appointment this afternoon. I am still being induced Sunday but due to the fact that I am still pretty thick and only dialated to a one, my doctor feels that this is gonna be a LONG labor, at least 24 hours. Then, she says that apparently my stupid pelvic bone is really thick and the baby's head may not be able to get past it... but, she is gonna let me try on my own before going for a c section. So, now I have it stuck in my head that I'm gonna have to have a c section and I really don't want to. Or, maybe I just wanna know what's gonna happen right now, I just wanna get it over with. I'm bummed.

38 weeks

Really, really not a cute picture.

9 days to go...

That's right, I'm getting induced on Sunday August 16th if it doesn't happen naturally before then... which I don't know that it will cause yesterday when she checked me I was "high and thick". Which is weird cause my uterus measured 34 which is much smaller than the week before. She checked to make sure there was enough fluid and put me on the heart rate monitor for a while and everything looks good so we have no idea why I am suddenly measuring smaller. I have done a lot of walking and am planning on doing everything I can cause I would rather not be induced if I can help it so we'll see!
As far as the tree... I wish the coloring was better, it seems darker in the picture. I chose a bunch of fabrics and cut out all the leaves and tree and decoupaged them on the wall with mod podge. It really only took a few hours total... I have a feeling it is gonna be as hard as wallpaper to get off though. Don't tell Trent, I told him it comes off easy cause he was hesitant ;)
We bought crown molding to put up... I was planning on painting the ceiling a color and painting the crown molding a shade darker but I have lost my motivation. I have never gone through that nesting phase, which i was excited for! I had ideas for stuff to hang on the walls and a neat idea for a book shelf and was planning on sewing the bedding. Luckily my dad made the quilt so that's done and I bought the dust ruffle so all I had to do is the bumper... well... I haven't even begun!

A Little Sneak Peak...

This is something we have done in the nursery...

Breaking News

Actually this news broke yesterday at my doctors appointment.... I'm getting induced!! YAY! I have been saying all along I had a feeling I was gonna have her early and so many people didn't believe me cause, "First ones are never early, in fact they are usually late" (I said that in an immature mimicky voice) (oh my word... see how cranky and impatient pregnancy makes me, we just don't suit each other well.)and now I can say, "I TOLD YOU SO!!"

At my appointment next week my doctor will check things out "down there" and we will schedule it at that point. Our little bundle of joy should be out of me by the 16 or 17th at the latest!

You stay classy, San Diego.

Why do I have no desire to blog?

I know I owe you an explanation... but that's it. I just don't feel like it. Also, I don't want every blog to be about being pregnant, but that is my whole life right now cause I can't do anything else cause I'm not allowed. But boy could I blog about pregnancy and baby right now.

and I'm cranky.

We had fun with my 33 week belly...

But you know what I also love?

• more alone time with Trent
• only getting up to pee in the night, not to take care of a baby
• more time to get prepared
• a squirmy little worm inside
• having things done for me/being lazy

But sadly, my love for these things don't out weigh my anticipation.

What else do you like about being pregnant?

I've been neglectful...

Things to Love:

• Sleeping on my stomach
• Doing cartwheels and handstands
• smaller number on the scale
• crunches
• bending over
• Candy and ice cream and cheesecake
• Going more than an hour without peeing
• Traveling
• carrying a baby OUTSIDE your body

I want my body back from this lil creature.

Feel free to add to this list if you need to vent also.

Holy Guacamole

I just thought I would update you. You better sit down for this one... like I said before, my work posted the ad on Craigslist at 11:00 this morning. As of 4:00 this afternoon, 435 resumes have been received through email alone. And we asked them to please fax them, so we haven't even began counting those. I will give you a second to pick yourself up off the ground. Crazy times...

I had to call Trent for positive reinforcement again.

Reality Check

I have been so excited to retire from the professional world, but this morning my work did a posting on Craigslist to find a replacement for me come July 31st, and I'm kinda sad. My first feelings of reality were in the form of nostalgia. But then real life reality set in, within 10 minutes of the posting being up, 45 resumes through email alone had been received. Times are really tough right now, it scares me that I am willingly giving up a job that so many others are fighting for. And basing this decision on the assumption our brand new company will be successful. Am I sure I wanna do this? Yep, I'm pretty sure that had I only been going on maternity leave, as soon as I held my little baby, I would be announcing to anyone in the room, "I'm not going back to work."